My Miracle Baby


~written June 15th~

My love for you is so strong my son. You mean everything to me and more. There is nothing that this world could do that would make me not cherish you forever. You brought in light which I thought everything was darkness. You are a blessing that I asked for so many years ago.

You were blessed to have your siblings watch you come into this world. I know you are born during the most difficult time, a dark time, filled with violence and unjustified thoughts of hatred that the world has to offer. But you are a gleam of hope into this universe and forever more I am grateful to have you in my life.

I love you so much Ramses…you truly are our miracle baby.

Power Rangers Movie Review

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~written June 14th~
When I end up saying I’d rather watch the original Mighty Morphine Power Rangers then the new remake…this to me is quite disappointing and very, very sad.

Just for the sake of my movie review post, I’ll give you the run down of the film. Five ordinary teens must become something extraordinary when they learn that their small town of Angel Grove, and the world is, on the verge of being obliterated by an alien threat. Chosen by destiny, the heros quickly discover they are the only ones who can save the planet. But to do so, they will have to overcome their real life issues and before its too late, band together as the power rangers.

Now I really, really tried to like this movie. I was obsessed with the TV show along with the original movie. So, I was ready to except any and all adaption to my beloved heroes and I have to say….I wasn’t impressed one bit. The movie felt like a twilight version of the power rangers (I deeply hate that movie) and there was practically no action in it what’s so ever. The original movie at least brought you action in the first five minutes into the movie. This version was so drawn out that it was unnecessary. Honestly the only character I felt for was the black ranger/Zack. I did appreciate that they changed up the characters and there color coordination (in the original you had to admit it was a bit racists)  but I was really left not really caring about anyone in this film.

And Goldar…

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That is not Goldar…This is Goldar:


Why couldn’t you just take the original and just updated his look with a more meaner, snarly beast look. And the Dinozords…no, no and hell no! It looked like I took some scissors, put it back together and vola! I made me a new Dinozords!

I’m sorry but, I’m all for updated looks and creating new a story. But this was not it. They definitely missed there mark and I’ll just stick to my original cheesy 90’s teenagers with attitude…


Thank You Ryan…

Last night, after 6 years of your passing I finally watched Jackass 3.5 and honestly I’m shocked that I didn’t break down once. A few tears streamed down my face when ever you sat and talked about your few segments with your brother Bam. I don’t think people understand how much your work and your gift of making people laugh meant to me.

The year was 2004. Jackass Number Two wont be released till 2006. I was in such a bad shape. I was in the brink of failing high school. I was in a abusive relationship with a much older person, I was trying to get over my rape by my boyfriend and my abortion from it but I felt like nothing worked but hurting myself. This year was nothing but hell for me, but some how I stumbled on to watching a viva la bam episode. Ever since seeing you do crazy stunts with Bam, I was just instently hooked. This turned me into getting all your CKY videos and following the Jackass crew that I felt like all of you saved me from myself.

When I decided to go see Jackass Number Two by myself, I was sitting in my high school gyms locker room crying my eyes out. I didn’t know how to move on with myself or how to cope with my feelings. Cutting myself the previous night didn’t do anything but cause me more pain. So at that moment I decided to just go to the movies and see you on the big screen. I knew not to get food because of the content you made. But honestly your craziness with your crew, helped me laugh and smile more. The pain I felt went away when you came on screen…and for this I thank you and to the whole Jackass family.

During your passing I was pregnant with my second child. My husband at the time didn’t want to tell me or have me find it on the internet. I cried for hours knowing that you won’t be on this earth anymore. I wanted to personally thank you for helping me during my darkest times. You were my bright light and I am forever grateful for the laughter and smile you have given me.

I know me waiting 6 years to watch Jackass 3.5 is a long stretch. But I thought seeing it would bring back horrible memories of my past…instead it brought back the happiest memories that I will hold forever in my heart.

And for that I thank you…